By the way, I should say that I have a new blog that I am constantly updating because it's my Post-Grad one.
New blog: http://jackyso.wordpress.com/
Thanks! ;)
Bisous,
Jacky
Friday, November 19, 2010
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
PAARIISS
Au Revoir Lyon et BONJOURRRRRR PARIS!!!!
:D
We are up nice and early to run errands and move Angelica out of her cute student studio in Lyon. I know she's definitely gonna miss her place and reminisce about living alone because she's been doing it for a year...it's really amazing actually.
But ya, we're gonna take the train into PARISSS! I've been waiting for this day. Haha, though I do love Lyon. It's such a beautiful place. And I finally was able to go out enough in order to be a familiar face and meet some really nice locals, like this one bartender who I'll nickname 300 bc, well, that's what he reminded us of hahaa. He was able to strike up a convo with me and he was super friendly. He couldn't make a snake bite bc he didn't have cider at the place, so he asked me if I liked Baileys, milk, and he can do that with vodka and cassis. I was like, okay sure. 300 told me he'd make me 1, and I can try it, and if I like it, then he can do another one. I asked him what it was called, and he was like, "Uhh..vodka, cassis...Baileys--" and I'm like, no no the name? And he's like, "Oh! Uh...I don't know. There is no...Oh! I'll name it after you." haha I was cracking up bc I'm like, "Okay, so now I *have* to like it bc it's named after me!" And 300 is all hopeful that I like it...actually it was super good. haha.
300 is studying law and just finished his first term or something like that. Anyway, it seemed like he was gonna help out this guy (co-worker guy that he seemed to prove was the new guy to us and when 300 ordered him to fetch ice in the bucket so 300 could make me a drink, the creepy guy was uber pissed) who I'll post about later who sat near us and Angelica finds creepy, so when the girl who was with the creepy guy said something like, "You can't have both of them! You have to pick one!" We were like, ummm ewwwww okay, we understand French, idiot! Anyway, 300 was pretty chill and we got free drinks as a gift lol.
WELP. Bye byeee Lyon!!!! We were just starting to be situated, too! Haha oh well, because PARIS IS NEXT!!
Anyway, at least 300
:D
We are up nice and early to run errands and move Angelica out of her cute student studio in Lyon. I know she's definitely gonna miss her place and reminisce about living alone because she's been doing it for a year...it's really amazing actually.
But ya, we're gonna take the train into PARISSS! I've been waiting for this day. Haha, though I do love Lyon. It's such a beautiful place. And I finally was able to go out enough in order to be a familiar face and meet some really nice locals, like this one bartender who I'll nickname 300 bc, well, that's what he reminded us of hahaa. He was able to strike up a convo with me and he was super friendly. He couldn't make a snake bite bc he didn't have cider at the place, so he asked me if I liked Baileys, milk, and he can do that with vodka and cassis. I was like, okay sure. 300 told me he'd make me 1, and I can try it, and if I like it, then he can do another one. I asked him what it was called, and he was like, "Uhh..vodka, cassis...Baileys--" and I'm like, no no the name? And he's like, "Oh! Uh...I don't know. There is no...Oh! I'll name it after you." haha I was cracking up bc I'm like, "Okay, so now I *have* to like it bc it's named after me!" And 300 is all hopeful that I like it...actually it was super good. haha.
300 is studying law and just finished his first term or something like that. Anyway, it seemed like he was gonna help out this guy (co-worker guy that he seemed to prove was the new guy to us and when 300 ordered him to fetch ice in the bucket so 300 could make me a drink, the creepy guy was uber pissed) who I'll post about later who sat near us and Angelica finds creepy, so when the girl who was with the creepy guy said something like, "You can't have both of them! You have to pick one!" We were like, ummm ewwwww okay, we understand French, idiot! Anyway, 300 was pretty chill and we got free drinks as a gift lol.
WELP. Bye byeee Lyon!!!! We were just starting to be situated, too! Haha oh well, because PARIS IS NEXT!!
Anyway, at least 300
Saturday, June 26, 2010
this blog is awk
It's 2:38 AM over here.
This blog is kinda awkward now haha.
Reading my last, long post was so weird for me, bc it made me think, like, wow...yeah all of that really did happen this latter half of the year and it was actually eventful for not being eventful, if that even makes any sense haha.
I guess it's important for you to read that bit of history in order to understand where I'm coming from here on out.
I made it a clear goal not to talk to people who were younger than me and also at my school...and well, if I did any bit at all, I didn't mention them in there haha. ;D
There are def. a couple exceptions (maybe 1 or 2) who I look forward to seeing when I come back.
:)
This blog is kinda awkward now haha.
Reading my last, long post was so weird for me, bc it made me think, like, wow...yeah all of that really did happen this latter half of the year and it was actually eventful for not being eventful, if that even makes any sense haha.
I guess it's important for you to read that bit of history in order to understand where I'm coming from here on out.
I made it a clear goal not to talk to people who were younger than me and also at my school...and well, if I did any bit at all, I didn't mention them in there haha. ;D
There are def. a couple exceptions (maybe 1 or 2) who I look forward to seeing when I come back.
:)
Friday, June 25, 2010
epiphany that I don't want any of the guys I was talking to...there are a couple of exceptions, of course
So I was doing some thinking…and being this far away from everything has given me such a good, clean view. I realize that most of the people I was talking to during Winter and Spring quarter are actually quite boring…and I don’t want any of them. There are a couple exceptions, of course, but for the most part, I want someone who is creative and multi-dimensional…someone who can talk about anything and everything. Someone talented who can teach me some things. Some of the guys that I was talking to or ever had anything with, well, they are intelligent, good-looking, educated, experienced, kind people (and all older and not at my school—I considered that imperative this time around), but most of them just kind of exposed one dimension of themselves and stuck it there. A couple of them surprised me bc I never knew they were interested in me like that after years of knowing each other and I never saw them in that way before, so I was surprised to find that they saw me in that way.
Well, I was in my current phase of, “you know what, it’s my last year in college and I might as well be open to giving some people chances” and I had a lot in common with a lot of people, but some people blew it. They were either not straightforward enough and full of bs and laggy or too possessive from the very beginning…or just too confused themselves…or busy, like me.
Actually, one of them was WAY too possessive from the get-go (Taurus, go figure); one was straightforward but not ballsy enough to make any sort of move and I was in my new mode of not making the first move bc I usually do since I’m so blunt, so it just kinda died there. A few older guys I talked to were like, 30 and felt the clock ticking away and kept saying that they wanted to marry me, and uh, we didn’t even go out on dates yet so…um, yeah. That definitely scared me away.
An old friend finally let me know that he wanted to take me out but actually finalizing a date never took place and then I just got kind of busy and that was it. He’s a pretty cool person, too, so that would have been nice but, que sera, sera I suppose.
Another one I finally hung out with for the first time as just the 2 of us in years and he said those 3 words to me which totally caught me off-guard cuz 1. We’ve never hung out before, not even just the 2 of us as friends; and 2. I just never saw that coming, esp. from him…ever. At first, I thought, maybe he’s just excited and it slipped out accidentally and he doesn’t really mean it like that. Then, he looks at me seriously 5 minutes later and says it again, louder, and I didn’t know what to say cuz my ex-boyfriend and I broke up a few weeks before that and this was also the first time this guy and I have ever hung out so I just smile, which makes him smile. Anyway, this guy fell out of the picture cuz we texted a bit back and forth, but nothing materialized and he was pretty flaky and if someone is flaky, I just take it as B.S. bc I'm like, well, if they'd want to talk to me or hang out with me, then they would. How else am I supposed to know if they don't text back and stuff?
ex: I texted this same person a couple months later about something (since you'll read some lines below about how he basically was forward about hanging out again) and I just happened to see him in person at an event later that night and he told me he got my text and was super receptive and happy to see me...well, case in point, how am I supposed to know that everything is peachy and he got my text if he doesn't ever respond back? Ya know?
Anyway, I was a little disappointed cuz I was just hopeful that older guys would be more mature about things and more open to talking and stuff, and esp. since we’ve known each other for some years, we’d at least talk or text more. Basically, he fell out of the pic and I was like, eh whatevs we’re still cool and kinda DGAFED and didn’t think much about it…then we keep running into each other randomly at the most random events and I still think nothing of it bc well, if he wanted to talk to me, then he would so I usually just say hi and bye and that’s really it. Then, 3 months after the 1st (two) time(s) that he said i love you, he basically got drunk and surprised me by letting it out again when we got a chance to hang out at a big event with everyone we knew. I was like, “What??” this time and he switched the subject. Then, that was basically it again and then I graduated and left the country! I honestly don’t expect anything when I get back though, and I’m pretty sure I’m going to just reject possible hangouts with him because I really don’t think they’re going to amount to anything…I mean, so far they haven’t.
I can write about it because none of them were undergrads at UCI, so whoopi! Well, I had fun in general talking to all these people. At least, my phone did (old and new), because I was always talking to someone, so the potential to go out and stuff was always there but I honestly never really did as much as people think I did only because I was genuinely soooooo, soooo busy with school and my activities and everything. Especially with Songfest and focusing on graduating, the only free time I had in my schedule were those awkward 1-2 hour gaps in between classes…then I’d pretty much be busy straight from 7AM-3AM…go to sleep maybe around 4 or 5AM…sometimes 6AM…get up at 7 or 8 AM depending on when I went to bed. So yeah, I’d basically ALWAYS be talking to somebody, but I never had time to see any of it through (so I’m sorry to those people). Like I’ve mentioned before, it’s not that I meant to blow any of those people on hanging out off, I just really couldn’t see a time to make it work in between everything I had going on. But anyway, the people that I did talk to, I now can look in retrospect at it all since I’m far away and see that while I have a lot in common with each of those people…they aren’t “right” for me, and 2 of my biggest pet peeves are 1. Phoniness and 2. Using people and I refuse to do either. Pride is also something from which I suffer, but it’s not a pet peeve…it’s just something I acknowledge that is both good and bad and can make me reject or convince myself to reject the things that I actually really want deep down. Anyway, so I never want to be one of those phony people and refuse to be so. I also never want to use people like that either.
I guess it’s because I have too much pride that I can’t be one of those girls that uses a guy or pretends to be soooo into a guy just to get things from him or just so she will not be lonely and just uses that guy to leapfrog over to the next target. I’m actually quite content in my solitude. I never feel lonely because there is so much going on in my life and I have the most amazing people in it, and I am definitely totally fine without a guy, but at the same time, I have to be open to the idea that there is someone who can match my complexity. So I’ve tried talking to these guys this last year, and I can’t lie to myself: they just aren’t for me.
If you know me, you know my complex and individual fashion sense. I wear what I wear when I feel like it, and people that scoff can do so because it wouldn’t deter me from being proud about expressing who I am. I want someone who would appreciate my very self-determinant sense of style. You know the whole partner in crime notion? That. Someone who would make silly videos with me and encourage me to push boundaries in art…like someone who would be down to do a sarcastic and witty web series with a tongue-in-cheek approach towards pop culture or Americanism or something taboo like that. And if they are too shy to be in front of the camera like that, then at least really supportive of my fun, playful, free-spiritedness. Maybe it’s because I’m well traveled, but I want a guy who is at least knowledgeable about the world and knows that there is a difference in dress for different occasions and places…like, he can’t go to a theatre performance looking like he just came from the beach with a tank, Rainbow sandals, and typical khaki or plaid shorts. Ya know what I mean? Because trust me, there are some guys who definitely do not get that at all. And some of them, I felt, couldn’t be 100% themselves with me. Like, I get that you want to impress me and that’s really nice and I appreciate it, but I also want someone to feel comfortable being themselves around me and just totally honest about who they are and how they feel, because that’s how I am and that’s the only way you’re gonna know who you’re truly compatible with!
I want someone versatile. Someone who could jet-set with me and adapt to any environment…like we can end up on the streets of Paris and the locals wouldn’t be able to tell right off the bat that we came from So Cal from the way we’re dressed. I guess the good thing about living by unusual hours (like officially calling it a night at 3 AM at the earliest and waking up 3 or 4 hours later for a jam-packed, non-stop day and basically being used to running on 3 or 4 hours of sleep a night, every night) is that not very many people chose to live that way, so it should be easier to be able to tell who has a similar schedule to mine, right? Ah, but then it also means that we’d both be too busy for each other, so there is the labyrinth. I’ve never been a normal person or lived an average life, so I wouldn’t expect my path to a relationship to be “normal” or “average” either, nor would I expect the relationship that I enter into (should I chose to stop being so independent) to be “normal” or “average,” too.
Because I’m such an atypical girl, I need an atypical guy who can match me on all levels…and from wanting to stay different and keep my “uniqueness,” I constantly try to evolve on different levels, which makes it difficult to find someone who would then match me because I’m always trying to not match anyone else…you see? So anyway, the atypical guy has not surfaced yet. There have been a couple who came close, until I found them unable to speak their minds or man-up and talk to me in person about stuff. I guess from me being so different, it should help me narrow down my prospects, non? They don’t have to be exactly the same as me, because that’s not interesting (or maybe two Jackys, a female and male version would be? lol); they don’t have to like the same music as me, but at least being open to doing things like going to a Jazz Café if they don’t like jazz, going to EDC with all my friends even if they don’t like electro or techno, being down to see a slam poetry reading or local rock bands play even if that’s not their thing. Basically, someone ambitious and worldly who wants to constantly evolve themselves as much as I do. Now all I need is the time to actually get to hang out with these people. Now that I’m out of school, I think I could do that lol.
Well, I was in my current phase of, “you know what, it’s my last year in college and I might as well be open to giving some people chances” and I had a lot in common with a lot of people, but some people blew it. They were either not straightforward enough and full of bs and laggy or too possessive from the very beginning…or just too confused themselves…or busy, like me.
Actually, one of them was WAY too possessive from the get-go (Taurus, go figure); one was straightforward but not ballsy enough to make any sort of move and I was in my new mode of not making the first move bc I usually do since I’m so blunt, so it just kinda died there. A few older guys I talked to were like, 30 and felt the clock ticking away and kept saying that they wanted to marry me, and uh, we didn’t even go out on dates yet so…um, yeah. That definitely scared me away.
An old friend finally let me know that he wanted to take me out but actually finalizing a date never took place and then I just got kind of busy and that was it. He’s a pretty cool person, too, so that would have been nice but, que sera, sera I suppose.
Another one I finally hung out with for the first time as just the 2 of us in years and he said those 3 words to me which totally caught me off-guard cuz 1. We’ve never hung out before, not even just the 2 of us as friends; and 2. I just never saw that coming, esp. from him…ever. At first, I thought, maybe he’s just excited and it slipped out accidentally and he doesn’t really mean it like that. Then, he looks at me seriously 5 minutes later and says it again, louder, and I didn’t know what to say cuz my ex-boyfriend and I broke up a few weeks before that and this was also the first time this guy and I have ever hung out so I just smile, which makes him smile. Anyway, this guy fell out of the picture cuz we texted a bit back and forth, but nothing materialized and he was pretty flaky and if someone is flaky, I just take it as B.S. bc I'm like, well, if they'd want to talk to me or hang out with me, then they would. How else am I supposed to know if they don't text back and stuff?
ex: I texted this same person a couple months later about something (since you'll read some lines below about how he basically was forward about hanging out again) and I just happened to see him in person at an event later that night and he told me he got my text and was super receptive and happy to see me...well, case in point, how am I supposed to know that everything is peachy and he got my text if he doesn't ever respond back? Ya know?
Anyway, I was a little disappointed cuz I was just hopeful that older guys would be more mature about things and more open to talking and stuff, and esp. since we’ve known each other for some years, we’d at least talk or text more. Basically, he fell out of the pic and I was like, eh whatevs we’re still cool and kinda DGAFED and didn’t think much about it…then we keep running into each other randomly at the most random events and I still think nothing of it bc well, if he wanted to talk to me, then he would so I usually just say hi and bye and that’s really it. Then, 3 months after the 1st (two) time(s) that he said i love you, he basically got drunk and surprised me by letting it out again when we got a chance to hang out at a big event with everyone we knew. I was like, “What??” this time and he switched the subject. Then, that was basically it again and then I graduated and left the country! I honestly don’t expect anything when I get back though, and I’m pretty sure I’m going to just reject possible hangouts with him because I really don’t think they’re going to amount to anything…I mean, so far they haven’t.
I can write about it because none of them were undergrads at UCI, so whoopi! Well, I had fun in general talking to all these people. At least, my phone did (old and new), because I was always talking to someone, so the potential to go out and stuff was always there but I honestly never really did as much as people think I did only because I was genuinely soooooo, soooo busy with school and my activities and everything. Especially with Songfest and focusing on graduating, the only free time I had in my schedule were those awkward 1-2 hour gaps in between classes…then I’d pretty much be busy straight from 7AM-3AM…go to sleep maybe around 4 or 5AM…sometimes 6AM…get up at 7 or 8 AM depending on when I went to bed. So yeah, I’d basically ALWAYS be talking to somebody, but I never had time to see any of it through (so I’m sorry to those people). Like I’ve mentioned before, it’s not that I meant to blow any of those people on hanging out off, I just really couldn’t see a time to make it work in between everything I had going on. But anyway, the people that I did talk to, I now can look in retrospect at it all since I’m far away and see that while I have a lot in common with each of those people…they aren’t “right” for me, and 2 of my biggest pet peeves are 1. Phoniness and 2. Using people and I refuse to do either. Pride is also something from which I suffer, but it’s not a pet peeve…it’s just something I acknowledge that is both good and bad and can make me reject or convince myself to reject the things that I actually really want deep down. Anyway, so I never want to be one of those phony people and refuse to be so. I also never want to use people like that either.
I guess it’s because I have too much pride that I can’t be one of those girls that uses a guy or pretends to be soooo into a guy just to get things from him or just so she will not be lonely and just uses that guy to leapfrog over to the next target. I’m actually quite content in my solitude. I never feel lonely because there is so much going on in my life and I have the most amazing people in it, and I am definitely totally fine without a guy, but at the same time, I have to be open to the idea that there is someone who can match my complexity. So I’ve tried talking to these guys this last year, and I can’t lie to myself: they just aren’t for me.
If you know me, you know my complex and individual fashion sense. I wear what I wear when I feel like it, and people that scoff can do so because it wouldn’t deter me from being proud about expressing who I am. I want someone who would appreciate my very self-determinant sense of style. You know the whole partner in crime notion? That. Someone who would make silly videos with me and encourage me to push boundaries in art…like someone who would be down to do a sarcastic and witty web series with a tongue-in-cheek approach towards pop culture or Americanism or something taboo like that. And if they are too shy to be in front of the camera like that, then at least really supportive of my fun, playful, free-spiritedness. Maybe it’s because I’m well traveled, but I want a guy who is at least knowledgeable about the world and knows that there is a difference in dress for different occasions and places…like, he can’t go to a theatre performance looking like he just came from the beach with a tank, Rainbow sandals, and typical khaki or plaid shorts. Ya know what I mean? Because trust me, there are some guys who definitely do not get that at all. And some of them, I felt, couldn’t be 100% themselves with me. Like, I get that you want to impress me and that’s really nice and I appreciate it, but I also want someone to feel comfortable being themselves around me and just totally honest about who they are and how they feel, because that’s how I am and that’s the only way you’re gonna know who you’re truly compatible with!
I want someone versatile. Someone who could jet-set with me and adapt to any environment…like we can end up on the streets of Paris and the locals wouldn’t be able to tell right off the bat that we came from So Cal from the way we’re dressed. I guess the good thing about living by unusual hours (like officially calling it a night at 3 AM at the earliest and waking up 3 or 4 hours later for a jam-packed, non-stop day and basically being used to running on 3 or 4 hours of sleep a night, every night) is that not very many people chose to live that way, so it should be easier to be able to tell who has a similar schedule to mine, right? Ah, but then it also means that we’d both be too busy for each other, so there is the labyrinth. I’ve never been a normal person or lived an average life, so I wouldn’t expect my path to a relationship to be “normal” or “average” either, nor would I expect the relationship that I enter into (should I chose to stop being so independent) to be “normal” or “average,” too.
Because I’m such an atypical girl, I need an atypical guy who can match me on all levels…and from wanting to stay different and keep my “uniqueness,” I constantly try to evolve on different levels, which makes it difficult to find someone who would then match me because I’m always trying to not match anyone else…you see? So anyway, the atypical guy has not surfaced yet. There have been a couple who came close, until I found them unable to speak their minds or man-up and talk to me in person about stuff. I guess from me being so different, it should help me narrow down my prospects, non? They don’t have to be exactly the same as me, because that’s not interesting (or maybe two Jackys, a female and male version would be? lol); they don’t have to like the same music as me, but at least being open to doing things like going to a Jazz Café if they don’t like jazz, going to EDC with all my friends even if they don’t like electro or techno, being down to see a slam poetry reading or local rock bands play even if that’s not their thing. Basically, someone ambitious and worldly who wants to constantly evolve themselves as much as I do. Now all I need is the time to actually get to hang out with these people. Now that I’m out of school, I think I could do that lol.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
A Couple of Interesting Things, Actually
Actually had a couple interesting things happen that I'll update with later lol.
Sorry for the spotty updates. I have to use Angelica's ethernet, and it's hard to find a time when she doesn't need it and I can actually sit and think and write for a while...esp since the time diff from CA is 9 hours and that's the time when all my friends are awake...so anyway, yeah. I've been writing thoughts on a Word doc. and I have a bunch that I'll post up but I don't want to overwhelm your eyes with like, one huge, massive, long post all at once.
So yeah, a couple interesting stuff that I guess it worth sharing. Angelica needs her ethernet cord back so look forward to reading about it! :)
Love,
Jax
Sorry for the spotty updates. I have to use Angelica's ethernet, and it's hard to find a time when she doesn't need it and I can actually sit and think and write for a while...esp since the time diff from CA is 9 hours and that's the time when all my friends are awake...so anyway, yeah. I've been writing thoughts on a Word doc. and I have a bunch that I'll post up but I don't want to overwhelm your eyes with like, one huge, massive, long post all at once.
So yeah, a couple interesting stuff that I guess it worth sharing. Angelica needs her ethernet cord back so look forward to reading about it! :)
Love,
Jax
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Family Knows Best...
As stubborn as I am…and esp. when people tell me something, I want to do exactly the opposite bc I am so stubborn….family opinions matter. They only want the best for me and they wouldn’t want me to degrade myself. So, as much as I wouldn’t want to consider their opinions, I do have to acknowledge that there is truth in what they say because they know me, love me, and see certain things for me that I would be too stubborn to want to even take into account. You know it means something when a lot of them share a similar feeling/opinion about things. Their opinions have weight and I know that I have to stop being so stubborn and finally give in and listen to them one of these days…
Saturday, June 19, 2010
De quelle origin?
I'm afraid this blog might not be very eventful. I tend to keep my personal life on the DL and share select things with select people, but this blog is an attempt at me to just DGAF and open up more. However, I wonder what has changed in me because honestly, so far, I look around, and there is no one I find attractive! There is this thing people here do, which is blow out a bit of air--not quite whistling--at you to get your attention...that's like their cat call. Anyway, everyone does it. At first, it was funny bc the guy was literally running late to his plane and he still looked at me while running and blew out the air and raised his eyebrows at me to say hello. Now, I've come to realize that literally everyone does it--walking down the street, at the pub...anywhere to get your attention.
I was actually offended when we were watching the World Cup Game at the Black Lion Pub bc the guys at the table next to us kept doing that to us and they had FRANCE scarves on and said they were rooting for France in the beg, but they were impostors the whole time bc they were really cheering for Mexico! So, I was offended bc 1. that cat call thing is not unique, 2. they were only pretending to cheer for their home country and I hate phonies!
The other guys who came up to us there weren't even cute! Mind you, we were also with our Mama. And the best one was when these other guys asked where we come from and Angelica said, "It doesn't matter" bc we were uninterested and were leaving hahaa.
Anyway, yeah, so I made this blog with the intention of writing about dating adventures I go on, but seeing that I'm here with my family and also that I'm surprisingly uninterested in the locals, I think it will be more about revelations of my heart and maybe adventures as they come--but nothing really dramatic worth keeping you clinging to your seats, so I'm sorry in advance if that's what you expected.
I can, however, say that "De quelle origin??" is becoming a very overused, cheesy, and unoriginal pick-up line. All these people have yellow fever, but it's for the wrong reasons, and they seem to equate anyone from the Asian continent as one and the same. Y'all know that culture and language are extremely important to me...so nothing offends me more than people being ignorant and not respecting differences in culture and language. This may be shocking, but yes, not all "Asiatiques" are the same.
I was actually offended when we were watching the World Cup Game at the Black Lion Pub bc the guys at the table next to us kept doing that to us and they had FRANCE scarves on and said they were rooting for France in the beg, but they were impostors the whole time bc they were really cheering for Mexico! So, I was offended bc 1. that cat call thing is not unique, 2. they were only pretending to cheer for their home country and I hate phonies!
The other guys who came up to us there weren't even cute! Mind you, we were also with our Mama. And the best one was when these other guys asked where we come from and Angelica said, "It doesn't matter" bc we were uninterested and were leaving hahaa.
Anyway, yeah, so I made this blog with the intention of writing about dating adventures I go on, but seeing that I'm here with my family and also that I'm surprisingly uninterested in the locals, I think it will be more about revelations of my heart and maybe adventures as they come--but nothing really dramatic worth keeping you clinging to your seats, so I'm sorry in advance if that's what you expected.
I can, however, say that "De quelle origin??" is becoming a very overused, cheesy, and unoriginal pick-up line. All these people have yellow fever, but it's for the wrong reasons, and they seem to equate anyone from the Asian continent as one and the same. Y'all know that culture and language are extremely important to me...so nothing offends me more than people being ignorant and not respecting differences in culture and language. This may be shocking, but yes, not all "Asiatiques" are the same.
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Fabio?
So I arrived in Paris yesterday and took the train to meet my sister, Angelica, in Lyon! Together, we picked up Mama from the airport. Angelica actually turns 21 today, and we're gonna watch the Mexico vs. France World Cup game at one of the bars around here later...so exciting! Anyway, so we're not planning to go back to Paris until the 1st, and we're also going to Venice, Rome, and Barcelona as a family...pretty stoked.
I actually met someone before I was supposed to leave. He's cute, seems sweet, cultured, interested in language, pretty determined, but I don't know if I can deal with him having longer hair than me....and I have really long hair!
From here on out, I am debating about giving the people in my future posts nicknames in order to conceal their identities haha.
So...let's call this one....Fabio??
I actually met someone before I was supposed to leave. He's cute, seems sweet, cultured, interested in language, pretty determined, but I don't know if I can deal with him having longer hair than me....and I have really long hair!
From here on out, I am debating about giving the people in my future posts nicknames in order to conceal their identities haha.
So...let's call this one....Fabio??
Thursday, June 10, 2010
I figured, why not start a dating blog while in Paris?
This is the first time I'm going to Paris single.
Like really single, not just kinda talking to someone, but for reals single.
I've always gone with family, so the opportunity to date in Europe before never really came around. However, now I'll be out of school and not have a single thing to worry about, and that totally changes the equation! A lot of people also told me to expect to see them in Europe, so I'm really excited for all the fun adventure outings and reunions that will happen. I'm about to graduate from UCI on Saturday, model in Graffiti Beach's show Sunday, then shuttle it off at 4AM Monday morning to fly back out to the one love that has never let me down--Paris!
At first, I was only joking with a friend about starting a blog about dating in Paris so that I could fill her in on it, but the more I flirted with the idea in my mind, the more appealing it became. One of my friends whom I skype with a lot is over in Japan and tells me about how entertaining I am and that I should have my own live stream or something because I'd be really entertaining and fun to watch, so I figured, why not have a dating blog? I really have nothing to lose.
My love life needs a fresh start, and I just want to begin it all over again. It's not that I didn't care or meant to blow off on hanging out with people or taking up offers on dates this last year, but I was just genuinely, really, really, REALLY busy...plus I had Songfest practice until like 1AM most days AND I was really sick with bronchitis, duty on other days meaning that I literally couldn't go out, and lots of work in general.
But now, I feel like there are boundless opportunities for me, now that I don't have to worry about school or work. I held myself back from other pursuits just because I kept my focus on school, but now that I'm graduating, everything is different. I'm old enough but young enough at the same time to be able to experience dating in Paris, and I won't have school to worry about. Plus, I'm single and don't know when another opportunity to experience this will come again! The next time I come to Paris, I honestly doubt I'll still be single. Who knows! I might just meet someone there!
What if some dashing French gentleman totally woos me and sweeps me off my feet and I fall madly in love? Isn't that an interesting thought? haha. It will be funny to go back and read this first post later after everything that will have happened in the next couple of months.
But, we shall see if I am even woo-able to that degree. Most of the guys will probably just want to get into my pants. Typical. Haha. So I guess we shall see if there is anyone who has anything more to offer. It's tough, because people just want quick satisfaction. No one looks for substance anymore.
And I guess, my Taurus side looks for that dependability, reliability, and stability. Something a bit fixed. But my Gemini side gets flighty and the moment I realize I could be vulnerable, I want to run away because I'm afraid of giving someone else that much power to be able to hurt me with. I guess that explains my independence. My Taurus side craves something meaningful, loyal, and sensual, and my Gemini side is extremely light-hearted, witty, and such a smart ass, and I want someone to appreciate and value my mind more than anything else. Both are pretty stubborn signs, but luckily, I have my Piscean moon, so if I had to be the first to apologize to make everything all better, I'd do it (within reason). And then my Pisces side feels emotions very, very deeply and I often reflect deeply within myself and ponder my own thoughts quite a bit. I know I'm a super outgoing and silly person, but I definitely don't show this introspective side to just everyone because it's an introspective side. Instead of sympathy, I try to put myself in that other person's position and really feel what they feel, which I guess, means even more that I would be afraid to be hurt or hurt others. Oh, I am the exact Taurus-Gemini cusp with a moon in Pisces, btw.
If you don't get astrology-speak, I highly recommend getting into it. :)
Apparently, I'm compatible with a lot of signs, but we'll see if there is anyone in particular who can be a special homme for a very atypical femme. ;)
--And with this, I thank you for reading. :) There will be lots more to come (I hope!!)!
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