I figured, why not start a dating blog while in Paris?

This is the first time I'm going to Paris single.

Like really single, not just kinda talking to someone, but for reals single.

I've always gone with family, so the opportunity to date in Europe before never really came around. However, now I'll be out of school and not have a single thing to worry about, and that totally changes the equation! A lot of people also told me to expect to see them in Europe, so I'm really excited for all the fun adventure outings and reunions that will happen. I'm about to graduate from UCI on Saturday, model in Graffiti Beach's show Sunday, then shuttle it off at 4AM Monday morning to fly back out to the one love that has never let me down--Paris!

At first, I was only joking with a friend about starting a blog about dating in Paris so that I could fill her in on it, but the more I flirted with the idea in my mind, the more appealing it became. One of my friends whom I skype with a lot is over in Japan and tells me about how entertaining I am and that I should have my own live stream or something because I'd be really entertaining and fun to watch, so I figured, why not have a dating blog? I really have nothing to lose.

My love life needs a fresh start, and I just want to begin it all over again. It's not that I didn't care or meant to blow off on hanging out with people or taking up offers on dates this last year, but I was just genuinely, really, really, REALLY busy...plus I had Songfest practice until like 1AM most days AND I was really sick with bronchitis, duty on other days meaning that I literally couldn't go out, and lots of work in general.

But now, I feel like there are boundless opportunities for me, now that I don't have to worry about school or work. I held myself back from other pursuits just because I kept my focus on school, but now that I'm graduating, everything is different. I'm old enough but young enough at the same time to be able to experience dating in Paris, and I won't have school to worry about. Plus, I'm single and don't know when another opportunity to experience this will come again! The next time I come to Paris, I honestly doubt I'll still be single. Who knows! I might just meet someone there!

What if some dashing French gentleman totally woos me and sweeps me off my feet and I fall madly in love? Isn't that an interesting thought? haha. It will be funny to go back and read this first post later after everything that will have happened in the next couple of months.

But, we shall see if I am even woo-able to that degree. Most of the guys will probably just want to get into my pants. Typical. Haha. So I guess we shall see if there is anyone who has anything more to offer. It's tough, because people just want quick satisfaction. No one looks for substance anymore.

And I guess, my Taurus side looks for that dependability, reliability, and stability. Something a bit fixed. But my Gemini side gets flighty and the moment I realize I could be vulnerable, I want to run away because I'm afraid of giving someone else that much power to be able to hurt me with. I guess that explains my independence. My Taurus side craves something meaningful, loyal, and sensual, and my Gemini side is extremely light-hearted, witty, and such a smart ass, and I want someone to appreciate and value my mind more than anything else. Both are pretty stubborn signs, but luckily, I have my Piscean moon, so if I had to be the first to apologize to make everything all better, I'd do it (within reason). And then my Pisces side feels emotions very, very deeply and I often reflect deeply within myself and ponder my own thoughts quite a bit. I know I'm a super outgoing and silly person, but I definitely don't show this introspective side to just everyone because it's an introspective side. Instead of sympathy, I try to put myself in that other person's position and really feel what they feel, which I guess, means even more that I would be afraid to be hurt or hurt others. Oh, I am the exact Taurus-Gemini cusp with a moon in Pisces, btw.

If you don't get astrology-speak, I highly recommend getting into it. :)

Apparently, I'm compatible with a lot of signs, but we'll see if there is anyone in particular who can be a special homme for a very atypical femme. ;)

--And with this, I thank you for reading. :) There will be lots more to come (I hope!!)!